Supposing I could return in the past, I have a point that I would like to do again.
I would like to return the point when I was a junior high school student at third grade.
At that time, I was desperate to pass the high school that has a great popularity and fame. As a result, I had little entrance examination neurosis.
When I was a junior high school student at first and second grade, I practiced table tennis hard and obtained good prize at table tennis contest and scored relative good rating in school and cram school. So I do club activity and study smoothly.
However, when I became a third grade in a junior high school, the situation that surrounded me was changed. The club activity and entrance examination study became very hard and busy. Then only I could tackle both halfway. As a result it became impossible for me to obtain good prize at contest and good score at examination. I was impatient about that situation. At that time, I tended to care about the surrounding eye more than needed. So I had complex that I must get good record at club activity and good score at exam.
Although I tried very hard, results are not followed. At last I became desperate and depressed. I became to hate studying, and absent from cram school without permission. This bad situation continued until finishing entrance exam. So I did not study at all. I only played.
As expected, my entrance examination was failed.
This is that I repent most in my life. I do not repent of the result that my entrance examination was failed.
I repent of the things that cared about the public eye too much, missed myself, and gave up studying. So If I know then what I know now, I want to go back the point when I was a junior high school student at third grade. I would like to tackle club activity and study without caring about the public eye too much and giving up. Although there is no telling whether I finished entrance exam with the best result or not, I think that expected result is completely better than that time on condition that I did that way.
However, I think that I do not feel like returning the point when I was a junior high school student at third grade. That is because the redoing of junior high school life means that the lost of my high school life that I had experienced. I tried hard to reform myself at high school and at last I achieved that. So I could pass the examination and enter Tsukuba University
